Love Island’s Malin Andersson has opened up about her fears for her unborn child after the tragic loss of her four-week-old daughter, Consy.
The star took to Instagram to share a heartbreaking but candid post about her feelings after announcing her pregnancy earlier this week.
Malin’s daughter Consy tragically died just four weeks after her birth, after being born seven weeks premature.
The brunette beauty has opened up on social media about her “rainbow baby”, admitting that she has to remind herself that her pregnancy is not “too good to be true”.
Malin has also been seeking therapy to help cope with her “unresolved feelings and pain” of losing Consy and subsequently suffering a miscarriage two years after her death.
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Posting a snap of herself wearing a skintight nude bodysuit to show off her blossoming baby bump, Malin wrote: “Hey.
“It feels like I’ve been here with you before. I have. I’ll be honest, 3 years ago feels like a blur to me.. but feeling a new human growing inside me again feels so familiar.
“It scares me.”
The star continued: “So I’m here to welcome you on my journey with my rainbow baby. I know that sharing how I feel resonates.. and I want those that are struggling to conceive, or have lost a baby and are trying, pregnant with their rainbow baby or feel like their happy ending hasn’t come yet – to see a clearer view through my life. And that actually we must trust the timing in everything.
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“I haven’t spoken to you much yet on how I’ve felt.. to be honest it’s been a very weird journey so far. I was hesitant to even reveal my pregnancy.
“I have this inner hurt, this pain & that voice in my head that tells me this isn’t real.. that my child won’t survive – that something bad will happen.”
Malin went on: “I’ve been very quiet – Malin quiet? That’s strange – the queen of positive thinking… waking up each day with not much to say. Just hope in her heart that baby will make it another day…
“See the reality is, we never really know what life can throw at us – we must remain present & mindful.. appreciate every minute. For sure I hope for the best, but I can’t help past trauma creep up on me.
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“She’s integrated in me. Consy lives through me each day. I see her brown eyes open one last time… and it gives me fear… fear of the unknown.
“So what do I do?
“I’ve been going to therapy; remaining consistent. This has brought up a whole lot of unresolved feelings & pain that I seemed to have blocked out… don’t get me wrong I have the most amount of love and joy in my heart – but as I said… I’m only human. We tend to always think the worst.
“When I realise what’s growing inside me, I get goosebumps, I have to have a double take. Isn’t it sad that sometimes things seem too good to be true?
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“Well maybe, just maybe they aren’t. I keep telling myself that this is my time…”
“And for f***in’ sure – it is,” she added resolutely.
“Believe in your time.
“I’m here to tell you that your ending is only your beginning.
“Ma,” she signed off with a grey heart emoji.
Malin announced the news of her pregnancy on Monday, sharing a snap of her bump with her partner’s arms around her.
Writing alongside the post, Malin penned: “My heart feels electric writing this, my eyes tearing up… because I can promise you all there was once upon a time I never thought I could experience this. I was wrong.
“It just wasn’t the right time. All the pain I’ve endured has led to this very moment… my own little family.
“Mumma – I know you’re looking down with bright eyes and a big smile. Baby Consy – protect us from above.”
She added: “This is us now.”
At the time of Consy’s death, Malin shared a picture of the newborn, writing: “Completely in love with you… and my mum just wanted you to be with her. Your time wasn’t ready yet.
“Mummy loves you. I stayed with you each day… you opened your eyes one last time for me and I saw those beautiful big brown eyes.
“I’m so sorry I couldn’t do anymore. Go be with grandma Consy. My angel. Rest in peace CONSY GLORIA EMMA ANDERSSON-KEMP 23/12/18-22/01/19.”
If you have been affected by this story, advice and support can be found at Sands (stillbirth and neonatal death charity). You can call them on 0808 164 3332 or email helpline@sands.org.uk.
Source: Celebrities - dailystar.co.uk
