Gemma Collins has discussed the traumatic moment her four month old baby “died in front” of her.
The 39-year-old reality star has revealed she suffered a miscarriage at four and a half months pregnant back in 2012.
TOWIE favourite Gemma said she gave birth on her landing at home before heading straight to the National Television Awards.
Speaking on her podcast, Gemma revealed: “I’ve had some shocking things happen to me, I’m not sure I’ve spoken about this before.
“But I actually gave birth to a child, sadly, and basically the child was four months old, basically I had a miscarriage but obviously the baby was formed and it died in front of me.
Gemma Collins has revealed she suffered a miscarriage at four and a half months pregnant back in 2012 (Image: Dave Benett/Getty Images for Jersey Style Awards)
“I had to go to the hospital and my mum was there. I can remember my mum being really upset, I was in shock, I was upset.
“That was really a shocking moment for me. But this is what I’m saying, I can talk about it now.
“Things sometimes are not meant to be.
She continued: “I’ll never forget it. It was a very traumatising experience because I didn’t know I was pregnant and literally I remember waking up with severe pains.
The reality star has discussed the traumatic moment her four month old baby “died in front” of her (Image: Getty Images)
“My mum said to me, ‘Gemma you need to go to the toilet,’ and I was like, ‘Honey, this is not…’ I mean obviously I couldn’t describe.
“Look I try and find the bit of entertainment in this bad situation because I think that’s probably a coping mechanism of mine, I try to laugh or see a brighter side in things even though it was really traumatic.
“But I can remember just being in utter shock. I’ve been through a lot so I feel in life, nothing shocks me.
“So anything you could tell me now wouldn’t shock me because I’ve been through a lot and dealt with a lot but I’m grateful for those experiences because I can sit here today and relay them to other people.”
Gemma didn’t know she was pregnant at the time (Image: Gemma Collins/Instagram)
Gemma fell pregnant when she was in a five- year relationship with a Banker, and was unaware that she was expecting his baby as she was taking the contraceptive pill at the time.
It is not the first time Gemma, also known as The GC, has spoken about her miscarriage.
The former Celebrity Big Brother star previously spoke about it in her 2013 autobiography Basically, admitting that she was thought it was “God’s way” of punishing her for a previous abortion.
“I’ll never forget it, it was a very traumatising experience because I didn’t know I was pregnant and literally I remember waking up with severe pains,” Gemma explained.
(Image: Gemma Collins/Instagram)
She said: “I didn’t know I was pregnant because I’ve got polycystic ovaries.”
She had even taken additional medication for her “upset tummy” leading several doctors to advise her that the foetus could have been harmed.
“The doctor said the embryo wouldn’t be a good one because I’d been taking medication. I got three doctors’ opinions – I still felt really guilty about it, though.”
She added: “I do feel guilty. What if I can never have a baby now? The miscarriage felt like God’s way of punishing me.”
Gemma has always longed for the fairytale ending, the proposal, marriage and the baby (Image: Gemma Collins/Instagram)
Gemma has always longed for the fairytale ending, the proposal, marriage and the baby.
The self-confessed diva spoke about her plans to have a baby with on-off boyfriend James “Arg” Argent earlier this year.
In an interview with New magazine, Gemma said: “What if it doesn’t like singing, dancing, pink fluff? Can you imagine? I hope it’s a fabulous creation.
“It’ll have a very over-the-top nursery – come on, it’s The GC’s baby.
“My only worry is what if it comes out and it’s really boring? That would get me very nervous. I hope she’s like me.”
Source: Celebrities - dailystar.co.uk
