'Could I have saved her?' – Olly Murs still crippled by grief over Caroline Flack's death

Olly Murs is in turmoil over the death of pal Caroline Flack because he worries he could have saved her.

The singer is still crippled by grief two years on from her tragic suicide.

Opening his heart in his most emotional interview yet, Olly today reveals he often questions if he did enough.

He told the Daily Star Sunday: “God bless Caroline. I love her. I miss her every day and I think about her every day.

“I think about what I could have done to change things, what I could have said. There are all sorts of questions I ask myself every day. It’s always difficult.

“But there’s nothing I can do to bring her back. All I can do is keep living and keep her in my thoughts.”

February 15 will mark the two-year anniversary of TV star Caroline being found dead at her London home aged just 40.

The tragedy was devastating for her many loved ones and millions of fans who watched her on Love Island.

Olly, 37, had never experienced pain like it before.

He said: “I have been to therapy before. But with Caroline it was different. It was something I’ve never experienced… that level of grief.

“Luckily I’ve got a great girlfriend, a great family and I’ve got friends that have been through grief as well. The important thing is to talk about it.

“I’ve taken a lot of comfort in her mum and her friends, too. As and when we speak, it’s nice to be around people that loved her just as much as I did.”

Olly and Caroline became pals when they fronted The Xtra Factor in 2011.

And they were so good together that within just a few years they were given the plum job of hosting main show The X Factor.

Together they were living the dream and formed a close bond.

Olly has now taken on his first presenting job since Caroline’s death — fronting new ITV show Starstruck, which kicks off next Saturday.

As you would expect, memories of his time working alongside her are at the forefront of his mind.

He said: “The last time I did a Saturday night TV show was with Caroline. I avoided hosting a show for quite a few years, so this is a big moment for me.

“When we filmed the pilot, it felt strange. It was weird for me to be on my own. It was weird not having someone next to me.

“But Caroline was definitely with me. I was thinking about her and what we’d be doing if we were together. We’d be having a joke or a dance.

“Many times before filming started, I’d think about Caroline and the things she used to say to me and the jokes she’d make.”

Olly credits Caroline for helping him carve out a career in TV.

He added: “I wouldn’t be the presenter I am without Caroline. She was the real deal. People don’t give her enough credit for what a great presenter she was.

“In the early days of me doing TV, I needed Caroline next to me because she was the pro. I definitely learned so much from her. I was like a sponge.

“And I use a lot of the things that she taught me now — stuff about reading the autocue, reading notes, writing things down, doing bullet points, using highlighters.”

Olly is determined to honour Caroline’s memory for the rest of his life.

He said: “I know Caroline would have been really proud of me getting this job. I will continue to try and do her justice and do her proud.

“I’ll never forget her. She is always there in my memories and thoughts. I’ll always try to do my best for her.”

For emotional support, you can call the Samaritans 24-hour helpline on 116 123, email jo@samaritans.org, visit a Samaritans branch in person or go to the Samaritans website.

Source: Celebrities - dailystar.co.uk