Camila Cabello has said she is “mourning” her childhood self, who could enjoy a day at the beach without worrying about how she looked.
The Senorita singer posted a long message on Instagram revealing a recent beach day was ruined because she spent the whole time sucking in and trying to look her best in case paparazzi were snapping her.
Camila, 25, told fans that every time she goes to her beach club in Miami she gets papped and ends up feeling “super vulnerable”.
“I’ve worn bikinis that were too small and paid no mind to how I looked, then saw pictures online and comments and been so upset,” she said.
“I reminded myself when it impacted my self-esteem that I was thinking the culture’s thoughts and not my own.
“A culture who has gotten so used to an image of what a ‘healthy’ woman’s body looks like that is completely not real for a lot of women. Photoshop, restrictive eating, over exercising, and choosing angles that make our bodies look different than how they are in the moment and in their natural form, when we take a deep breath, when we eat a meal, when we allow waves to tussle us around.
“I remind myself of this, listen to podcasts on intuitive eating, follow women who accept their cellulite, stretch marks, bellies, bloating, and weight fluctuations… and still, I’m a single woman in her 20s in the middle of a s*** ton of promo and I want to feel like I look ‘good’,” she admitted.
The former US X Factor star said on a recent beach day she got a new outfit and bikini, put on lip gloss and “didn’t eat anything too heavy before going in the ocean ’cause I knew it was gonna be basically a whole photoshoot”.
“I held my core so tight my abs hurt and didn’t breathe and barely smiled and was so self-conscious of where the paps were the whole time I couldn’t let go and relax and do what we’re meant to do when we go out into nature,” she said.
“I tried to pretend they weren’t there but I couldn’t and I held my breath from my sun chair in the ocean.”
Watching some toddlers just enjoying themselves in the water without being self-conscious gave the former Fifth Harmony star pause for thought.
“I’m not yet at the point in my journey where I can not give a f***,” she said.
“Intellectually, I know what I look like doesn’t determine how healthy, happy, or sexy I am. Emotionally, the messaging I get from our world is loud in my own head.”
The singer said she was trying to “get back to feeling like seven year old me on the beach”.
“I’m mourning her today,” she said.
“Happy, silly, breathing, pretending to be a mermaid, free.”
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