Model Chrissy Teigen and husband John Legend had anticipated that they would welcome their third child earlier this month but nothing could have prepared them for the sadness they would face after they lost their baby.
In a follow up post today, Chrissy delved into her reasoning for releasing such private images of the moment she lost her son Jack.
The 34-year-old explained that she simply “needed to remember the moment”, in the same way she wanted to be reminded of her wedding day, she wanted her heartache to be captured on camera so that she could look back.
It felt like the whole world stopped still, when Chrissy previously took to social media to share her families raw and tearful emotion in a number of black and white pictures that seemed to spark a divide.
Chrissy poured her heart out in a emotional blog post explaining her reasoning for sharing the loss of her son online (Image: BACKGRID)
While some people hailed the TV personality as “brave”, others seemed to be less understanding as they tried to comprehend why the entrepreneur needed to expose such an intimate and personal moment.
The emotive upload showed a string of images that emphasised their deep sadness as Chrissy and John weeped while they said goodbye to their baby boy.
Struggling with how to address the public again, Chrissy decided to share a blog post, she wrote: “I had no idea when I would be ready to write this.
“Part of me thought it would be early on, when I was still really feeling the pain of what happened. I thought I would sit in the corner of my bedroom with the lights dimmed, just rolling off my thoughts. I’d have a glass of red wine, cozy up with a blanket, and finally get the chance to address ‘what happened’.”
Chrissy explained that she needed to be reminded of the moment she lost her son Jack (Image: BACKGRID)
After suffering with placenta abruption, the American born star confessed that she had already come to terms with the fact she would be induced to deliver her 20-week-old baby, who wouldn’t survive long outside of the womb.
Following weeks of bed rest, she was eventually rushed to hospital and despite an army experts who had tried everything, including blood transfusions, she said nothing could be done to save her baby.
Recalling the tragic moment, she penned: “Late one night, I was told it would be time to let go in the morning.
“I cried a little at first, then went into full blown convulsions of snot and tears, my breath not able to catch up with my own incredibly deep sadness.
Chrissy opened up in a emotional post explaining why she released the emotive black and white images (Image: DIGITAL/EROTEME.CO.UK)
“Even as I write this now, I can feel the pain all over again. Oxygen was placed over my nose and mouth, and that was the first picture you saw. Utter and complete sadness.”
Chrissy had insisted that John and her mother capture every moment, no matter how devastating and uncomfortable it made them feel, she needed those images as a reminder of the pain she had suffered.
She detailed: “I explained to a very hesitant John that I needed them, and that I did NOT want to have to ever ask. That he just had to do it. He hated it. I could tell. It didn’t make sense to him at the time.
Chrissy instructed husband John and her mum to capture the images even though they felt uncomfortable (Image: BACKGRID)
“But I knew I needed to know of this moment forever, the same way I needed to remember us kissing at the end of the aisle, the same way I needed to remember our tears of joy after Luna and Miles. And I absolutely knew I needed to share this story.”
Backing up her decision to share her experience online, she added: “I cannot express how little I care that you hate the photos.
How little I care that it’s something you wouldn’t have done. I lived it, I chose to do it, and more than anything, these photos aren’t for anyone but the people who have lived this or are curious enough to wonder what something like this is like.
“These photos are only for the people who need them. The thoughts of others do not matter to me.”
Source: Celebrities - dailystar.co.uk
