By the end, Issa and her friends had learned how to embrace the unexpected.
Season 5, Episode 10: ‘Everything Gonna Be, Okay?!’
Dreams can come true, even if they don’t look as tidy as we envisioned them. The things that haunt you might be the things you need to explore. In the final episode of the final season of “Insecure,” we see this happen in the lives of the characters we have come to love.
We start this episode where we left off in the last. Issa is on her way home with Nathan, after he almost fought Lawrence at Tiffany’s going away party. When he drops Issa off, he breaks up with her.
“I was wrong — this ain’t good for me,” he tells Issa, his eyes teary. “I gotta take a step back.”
He chooses his sanity over the toxicity of Issa’s messiness. It’s important to note that Nathan is looking after himself: He realizes that he is constantly triggered by Issa and he needs to check in with himself. Issa’s open-ended relationship with Lawrence seems to spill all over the place and he does not want to be a part of that. Issa seems to take the breakup in stride and goes home. She doesn’t fight it.
The next day Molly wakes her with food and love. She wants to make sure her friend is OK, but she does not know that Nathan has already broken up with her. In the bathroom, Issa gets dragged by her reflection: “You’re down bad. I don’t know where you go from here. You were tripping about all these decisions and choices, just to end up here.”
“I just want to fast forward to the part of my life where everything is OK,” Issa tells her reflection.
That is exactly what happens next, sort of. We fast forward to Molly’s birthday. Her mother, siblings, Taurean and Taurean’s parents are at her place to celebrate her. It is the last time Molly will celebrate a birthday with her mother, but she does not know it yet. Tiffany is in town from Denver, and Kelli has a tall hunk by her side named Desmond. The girls all seemed to have moved on in life, but not Issa. She is contemplating leaving Los Angeles. Molly encourages Issa to consider her personal growth.
Molly seems to have found her tribe, her community, but so has Issa. We fast forward again to Issa’s birthday, thrown at Crenshawn headquarters, which lets us know that she chose to collaborate with him instead of going to MBW. In lieu of gifts, her assistant asked people to donate to The Blocc, and her friends donated $5,000. It is clear that Issa’s community supports her. At the party, Nathan shows up, and it is the first time they are seeing each other since his fight with Lawrence. He explains his behavior and donates some money to her in person. They iron out their wrinkles. It is nice to see them accept that they are not a good fit and walk away from each other in peace and with love.
This frees Issa up. Another montage of aerial shots of Los Angeles moves us forward in time again, and the girls are finally in Denver visiting Tiffany for her birthday. Tiffany hates Denver but she is also working on figuring it out. At Tiffany’s, Lawrence is haunting Issa again.
“You know what I always wondered, what would you have said to Lawrence if Nathan hadn’t interrupted?” Molly asked Issa.
“It’s too late, anyway!” Issa responds.
“Girl it’s not too late if that’s what you really want,” Molly tells her.
It is the voice in Issa’s head that tells her she can’t do the things she wants to do, that holds her back. She knows how she feels about Lawrence, yet she ignores it to be safe, to fit in, to not be out of pocket. Molly reminds her she can just do her thing.
“Sometimes it’s not that hard,” Molly says.
Between Molly’s mother passing away and Issa learning that Kelli is pregnant, after telling everyone that she doesn’t want to have children, something shifted in Issa. That voice became smaller. The urgency of the first few episodes seems to have tripled for Issa, who is watching her peers grow, personally and professionally.
That is how Issa ended up with Lawrence by the end of “Insecure.” She let go of the ideas that she had of herself and the expectations she thought her friends had for her. It was all in Issa’s head. That is where her reflection comes in: She was always talking to the mirror because her thinking was internal. In the real world, there were no expectations.
What I didn’t expect in the final episode was a wedding. Even though Molly married Taurean — and I am so happy for her — the wedding seemed like more of a celebration between Issa and Molly, the true soul-mates on the show. We see Molly walk out of a church with Taurean and hit the dance floor, but it isn’t until Issa is helping her out of her dress that we see a ceremony of sorts. Issa is unwraps the corset of Molly’s dress, tells her that she is happy for her and we get to see their relationship become even more layered.
“There goes my girl,” Issa tells Lawrence at the wedding while staring at Molly.
In this episode, at Issa’s birthday party, before she tries to kick it to a very handsome man, Kelli yells out:
“She woke up today and chose confidence!”
May we all learn from Kelli, Issa, Tiffany and Molly, who each came to realize, through many tough trials and errors, that opening yourself up to the unexpected is a form of strength. Resisting such matters, whether it is a boyfriend that had a child during a breakup, a move to a place outside of what you know, changing your mind about wanting children or finally letting your guard down, does not lead to a full life — we must remain open as people to move forward. May we all leave our insecurities behind and choose confidence.
Source: Television - nytimes.com
