Love split telly star Christine McGuinness has revealed she is grieving – for herself.
The model turned TV personality is ready to crack on with her career after splitting from Top Gear host Paddy last year.
It came after they filmed a BBC documentary Our Family and Autism about her three kids living with the condition, during which she was also diagnosed as being autistic.
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Christine, 34, explained: “I’d always wanted to be a wife, so once I met Patrick, I fully went into ‘perfect wife’ mode.
“You know I will stay in, I will cook and clean and make sure I’m the best wife I can be.
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“I was always pretending to be something else, rather than simply being me, and that’s all part of masking.
“I was making things worse for myself because I ended up too scared to go out. This lasted for around eight years.
“Patrick just thought I was a home bird, but I was making excuses all the time, whether it was weddings or birthdays, I avoided anything that would have meant socialising and having conversations with people.”
Christine told Psychologies magazine that while it was a relief to be diagnosed, she wished it had happened sooner.
She said: “This might sound really dramatic, but I grieve for little Christine.
“I grieve for the life I missed out on, all those years of feeling so misunderstood and unwanted.
“Autism wasn’t really spoken about, and I suppose I was just left to it.
(Image: mrscmcguinness/Instagram)
“Nobody ever took me to one side and asked me what the matter was – if they had, maybe I’d have explained that sometimes it’s too loud and overwhelming, and then maybe I’d have got the help I needed and I might have finished my education.”
She also said that Paddy, 49, is still living at home despite them separating after 11 years of marriage because their kids – nine-year-old twins Leo and Penelope, and Felicity, six – rely on routine.
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