Holly Hagan has revealed online abuse left her with crippling anxiety and hooked on plastic surgery.
The reality star was targeted over her looks as soon as she found fame on Geordie Shore in 2011.
She said: “Before I started Geordie Shore I thought I was really good looking. I thought I did my make-up really well and I thought the nine pairs of eyelashes that I wore were really trendy.
“I didn’t see anything wrong with the way that I looked.
“I did have people around my area that used to call me ‘fat’ and whatever, but I felt like I could handle that at that level.
“So when I went on Geordie Shore and I had the whole world calling me a fat and ugly slag, it was a lot to handle.” Trolls taunted Holly with vile comments, even saying she should have been “killed at birth” and mocking her image.
The Geordie Shore star was targeted over her looks
She said: “The main abuse was ‘fat slag’. I could deal with the slag part, but I just didn’t understand why people were
calling me out for my size.
“I didn’t think there was anything wrong with me. I never went on there for that. All of these people that I knew were making Facebook groups about me, were writing statuses about me, shouting things at me in the street.
“From that point I don’t think I left the house alone for about two years.”
Holly started having surgery in a bid to boost her confidence. But it made the trolling even worse. She said: “I think I thought that if I changed my appearance then the trolling would stop.
Holly says the plastic surgery made the trolling even worse
“So I started looking into absolutely everything. When I had fillers I did instantly feel happier, but then the trolls started to call me out for having fillers.
“I couldn’t do anything right – I’m ugly if I don’t do it and I’m ugly if I do. Then you keep trying more invasive things and you get to a point where you literally cannot try any more.
“At the end of the day it didn’t do what I wanted it to do, which was make the trolls stop.”
● Holly features in the latest episode of Geordie Shore: Their Story, which is on Tuesday at 10pm on MTV.
Source: Celebrities - dailystar.co.uk
