Former pop star Kerry Katona has admitted her children have kept her clean for 12 years.
The ex-Atomic Kitten singer endured a public battle with cocaine, saying she was never an addict, but instead a binger and would want to “chase it”.
Speaking candidly on her YouTube channel, the 39-year-old opened up about her fears of dying from an overdose.
Kerry’s ex-husband, George Kay, died aged 39 in July 2019 after “eating” a large amount of cocaine from the desk of his Holiday Inn hotel in Liverpool, as reported by the Liverpool Echo.
During a chat with a pal, Kerry revealed she’s been clean for 12 years (Image: Kerry Katona/Youtube)
The pair were married between 2014 and 2017 before they eventually divorced.
Speaking about George’s death, the mum-of-five continued: “With George dying of a drug overdose which I always knew was inevitable and as much as I tried to help him, you can’t help somebody who doesn’t want the help.”
Kerry who shared daughter Dylan-Jorge with George went on to say: “The fact that my baby girl lost her daddy to that, can you imagine if I did coke again and ended up dying.
Kerry shared daughter DJ with ex-husband, George, who died from a cocaine overdoese (Image: Kerry Katona/Twitter)
“The shame I would put on my children, now that is something I could never live with because I’ve put enough shame on my kids as it is.
“So that is what stops me from doing it.”
In a video posted to her 28,700 subscribers, the Whole Again songstress said: “It’s been 12 years and I still get the urge. I wasn’t an addict, I was a binger. I would get a bag of coke and that first line, I’d want to chase it.
Kerry admits to staying clean for the sake of her children (Image: Kerry Katona/Youtube)
“You’re always chasing that first buzz and it’s never as good. I never knew when to stop. “
She later revealed she would endure a fit due to the amount of cocaine she consumed.
“I’m so lucky, someone was looking over me. I think had about four fits and I thought, you’re going to end up dead here, I was destroying myself purposely, I was self-harming myself,” she added.
Kerry said cocaine eventually became her “best friend, confidence and courage”.
Speaking about her decision to stop using the Class A drug, Kerry admitted she has since made herself believe she is “allergic” to the substance.
“I’ve made myself believe if I ever touch that again, I’m going to die. That is how I have to look at it.”
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Source: Celebrities - dailystar.co.uk
